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[Aug. 17th, 2006|09:17 am] |
I miss all my FFXI friends.
:( |
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| Again, from Locano's journal |
[Jun. 3rd, 2006|03:20 pm] |
These are supposedly 30 questions that no one would EVER think to ask. Answer them, with what comes to mind first, then REPOST.
1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
Am I still high?
2. When is the next time you will have sex?
Can't really plan those things unless you have a girlfriend.
3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR"?
More
4. Favorite planet?
Earth
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile?
Alex
6. What is your favorite ring on your phone?
Vibrate
7. What kinda shirt you have on?
None
8. What do you "label" yourself?
Writer
9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing?
Chuck T's
10. Bright or Dark Room?
Dark
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
I don't think he plays FFXI anymore
12. If you're alone in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep on?
I'd push them together, then curl up on the side closest to the wall
13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Drinking I think
14. What did your last text message say that you received on your mobile?
Do you work at the hotel tonight
15. Where is your letter box?
wha
16. What's a word that you say a lot?
Fuck
17.Who told you he/she loved you last?
Don't remember
18. Last furry thing you touched?
hahaha...
19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
That's not fair. Nothing wednesday. Lots of alcohol thursday. Some alcohol and a lot of pot last night.
20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
None.
21. Favorite age you have been so far?
21
22. Your worst enemy?
I don't really consider anyone my enemy because I think it's kind of childish, but I'm sure there are some people who consider me one.
23. What is your current desktop picture?
Metric band pic
24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
See ya
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly, which would you take?
Fly
26. Do you like someone?
Not really sure. I like me
27. The last song you listened to?
Black hole sun
28. If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, would you jump in front of the bullet?
Yes
29. If you could punch one person in the face who would it be?
Dunno. A lot of people that i know need to be punched in the face.
30. What is the closest object to your left foot?
Ipod |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 30th, 2006|07:33 am] |
Got this from Locano's journal and it seemed pretty fun.
IF A MOVIE WAS MADE OF YOUR LIFE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
- - - - - - - Your Life: The Soundtrack - - - - - - - -
So, here's how it works:
Open your music player (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, etc).
Put it on shuffle.
Press play.
For every question type the song that's on.
When you go to a new question press the next button.
Ready? GO!
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
Opening Credits: Tomorrow (Bad Religion)
Waking Up: Numb (Linkin Park)
Falling in Love: Letting The Cables Sleep (Bush)
Fight scene: Forest (System of a Down)
Breaking up: God Song (Bad Religion)
Getting back together: Raise your Voice (Bad Religion)
Making Love: Hey Johnny, Park! (Foo Fighters)
Life's okay: Song 2 (Blur)
Mental breakdown: Ending Start (Metric)
Driving: Grow Up And Blow Away (Metric)
Flashback: I am a Revanent (The Distillers)
Partying: No Substance (Bad Religion)
Happy dance: You Will Lose Faith (NoFx)
Regretting: The Lifestyle (Metric)
Long night alone: Comedown (Bush)
Death scene: Faith Alone (Bad Religion)
Ending credits: One People, One Struggle (Anti-Flag)
Some of these are pretty damn neat. The love making one is good but the best is the mental breakdown. Listen to that song and tell me you can't hear it playing in someone's head as they go crazy. |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 22nd, 2006|11:00 pm] |
the silent hill movie is very good
except for the acting |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 2nd, 2006|11:53 pm] |
Hi all
I've started a new LJ for posting bits of my novel as i work on it. I'm making it friends only, so if you want to give it a read as i go, add hollitz_novel to your friends list. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 24th, 2006|03:05 am] |
there's really no point in denying any of this, so don't bother trying. everything every online quiz every says is always right about everything. ever.
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 3rd, 2006|02:29 am] |
i'm addicted to facebook :(
so i needed a real picture.
so in case you were wondering
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[Jan. 23rd, 2006|11:39 pm] |
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first bit of a story that i'm working on. apparently the post is too large, so it will come in two parts. fuckedy-balls LJ and your size limits
( Banana Song Part 1 (part 1) ) |
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| urh!!! |
[Dec. 24th, 2005|01:07 am] |
I am very very very drunk!
Seems like a good time to let my thoughts fly.
I'm feeling very lonely right now, and I know that it's my fault. I've alienated my friends for something ridiculous. I made the mistake, a few times now, of answering my ex's calls. I've learned shocking secrets about one of my high school friends. I can't grow the balls to ask a girl out. I think i failed as many as three classes. In short, i'm kinda depressed. And this, after all my bitching and moaning about how depressed people piss me off. I had a good streak, I haven't been sad for a long time, probably about a year or two. But now that streak is over, and everything is falling down at once.
I'm on my nineth beer right now, I didn't plan to drink this much, but everything is falling down. I don't know when i developed a sense of pride, but i wish i hadn't. I don't like feeling arrogant, but it's how i feel these days. Ryan, Aarron, Tyler, I'm sorry if i've been a dick to you. You are three of my cloesest friends, and i really don't want to lose you over a silly game. I realize that i have invested too much of my hopes into final fantasy. Completeing promathia missions, and doing end-game things have become my all-consuming goal, when my writing should be. I'm sorry for being mad at you guys for the game, you deserve better than that.
In other news, it's offically Christmas eve, and the holiday spirit is gone. I'm so fucking bummed out right now. I miss my friends. I miss a girl who did nothing but hurt me. I miss the certainty that i had about the world and it's people.
At least i have my writing, and perhaps it will grant me a future of fame and fortune. I don't want the fame as much as i want the fortune...mostly becase i am lazy.
There's a phrase called drunk sincerity, where you say what you don't mean when you are drunk. I've never abided by this, when i'm drunk, i say what i mean. I'm sorry to the people that i have wronged, and i miss the poeple that i hate.
I've spent all night cleaning my apartment and drinking. I've sorted the past year into the piles of paper that have surrounded my desk chair. I wrote this:
This has nothing to do with anything. Seventh beer in hand. Surrounded by the last year. Sorted into piles. Bathroom reading. Importatnt papers. Writing prompts. Feedback. Trash. Yet-to-be-labeled. Encircled by paper. Prose is for people who want to be poets. But who suck at it.
I cried a little when i re-read all of this. Why does everything have to go to shit at the same time? Why can't life's bad moments spread themselves out?.
Right now, I'm writing a story that is do dark, that it is black. It's giving me nightmares.
I really hate feeling like this. I thought i was better than this.
Beer number ten, and i'm shaking, almost hoping that i get alcohol posioning. There's a bottle of rum in the cabinet if i run out of beer. I don't like having an ego, although i know that i need one. I don't like being proud, although i'm fairly certain that i need to be. I know that i write well, and i need to be proud of it, because writing has become an industry these days. You need to sell yourself.
I can barely focus anymore. I don't know why i haven't passed out yet. I'll read this tomorrow and feel embarressed. Or i won't read this tomorrow, because i'll remember writing this. And feel embarressed.
I guess the past few years have been an expirement for me. I've let down all of the people that i love. My parents, my friends. I don't know why i have, maybe it's just something that i needed to do, needed to experience. Because i know that they all would forgive me. My parents have no choice. I am thier future, they have to love me no matter how bad i fuck up in school. My friends have a choice. But i know that they will forgive me. Because they know that i am like this, and they still choose to be my friends. And i am sorry.
Right now, it's cold. And i still have two more bottles to finish off, and i hate seeing my name, printed in black on the nametag on the floor.
And i tried to clean my room tonight, but there are pennies everywhre and they look like mouse shit. And I'm sad. And maybe i've croseed the line this time and my friends hate me now. And maybe i deserve it. And maybe the next time that i see my friends there will be an awkward silence, in which we mean to attack each other, but we dont, because we are friends. And maybe i wish i had never made this post because i dont like feeling weak.
But in the end i'm going to click the update journal button. Because i am lonely. And sorry.
And everything is falling apart. |
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| hmmmmm |
[Dec. 21st, 2005|12:48 am] |
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Just finished typing up a VERY VERY VERY rough draft of a story that i've been working on. I'm not sure how i feel about it. There are things i need to change, i know this. But feel free to have a go at it, constructive criticism is always welcomed and appreciated.
( In that brief moment ) |
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| When the muse hits... |
[Dec. 19th, 2005|03:06 am] |
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I should be sleeping right now, but part of being a writer is a gained understanding that when the Muse wants to fuck, you've gotta just ride it out and let it have its way with you. I'm really excited to start on this new story when i get done with the one i'm currently working on. Here's a little tease. God i love the muse.
( Strawberry Ban-Anna ) |
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